I’ve been keeping up my habit of waking at around 0430 to read my bible and study before the day begins. I’ve been reading a chapter in Proverbs and one chapter in a New Testament book a day. Right now I’m in James. I finished 1 Peter. I think I need to start taking notes on my bible readings as well because I cant recall anything specific about my reading that I’d care to share. I feel like Dr. Jones (Indiana Jones’ father) when speaking of the clues to find the Holy Grail, “I wrote them in my journal so that I wouldn’t have to remember them.”
For about a week I’ve done nothing but math. I hit a wee wall in programming when one of the assignments required me to use a number of calculus skills (that I lacked). Once again, I have an incredibly hard time letting my self just “move on and come back” to a problem that I currently dont understand. So I’ve been hitting the Khan Academy pretty hard in order to close the understanding gap a bit (regardless, this is a segment I’ll probably have Jedi Dave debrief me on when I finish Unit 1).
But all is not lost! I found out that I love studying math. I believe that mathematicians are probably the greatest and most useful explorers in human history. They dedicate their entire lives and mental capacity to discovering the order in what seems like chaos. The Lord is a god of order and creation. He did not shake up a bunch of dirt and let it float in space. He declared that everything in existence would be ordered – one way or another. Mathematicians exert the short span of their lives to discover this order. To learn about creation and, intentionally or not, worship the Creator.
Therefore, I believe without reservation, that to study math is one of the single greatest acts of worship – because you seek the face of God. We study His creation so that we might know Him more.
Math has also taught me another wee idea: everything creation has its place, its fit, in order to function properly.
This last weekend was great because I was able to spend a great amount of time with my wife and kids. It has been a number of weeks since we had dedicated time together. I had lost sight of how far we had drifted away from “fitting” together. We were not in harmony and we were just getting by. Sometimes, I wonder if my sons forget who I am during the week because I’m gone so much. My wife sleeps alone in a cold bed (pending our fat cat doesnt want to snuggle). Sometimes I feel as if I’m dividing my family life by zero.
When I read the scriptures I see that, like math, everything has order. When it comes to my family, I must never forget to study my children, to study my wife and learn how well we are “fitting”. I have a terrible tendency to laser focus on a single thing and forget the rest.
May the Lord never let me forget them.